Trying to be optimistic

People often tell me that absence makes the heart grow fonder. In most cases, it does. However, if your luck is anything like mine, this popular saying means nothing. I found this out last summer when I anxiously waited for my boyfriend to return from basic training and A.I.T. At the time, we had been dating for a little over a year. I had waited for him for five months, and I thought that it would bring us closer together. Unfortunately, it was quite the opposite. By the time he came home, he no longer wanted to be in a relationship. This came as a huge shock to me because of the sweet letters that he wrote me. Although it was extremely difficult to get over, I handled the situation the best that I could. To make sure that I wouldn’t have my heart broken again, I promised myself never that I would never wait on a man again. Sure enough, I got over my ex boyfriend and everything was back to normal. I ended up meeting a really sweet man that lived in an apartment above my friend. We spent a couple months hanging out almost every day. After getting to know each other, and realizing how much we had in common, it made perfect sense for us to be together. We have now been together for almost four months. We’re really happy together, but like every couple, every once in a while, we run into a problem. Currently we’re separate homes that make us unhappy. Therefore, we’re trying to find an apartment together. Though money is tight, were working together to find the home of our dreams. While desperate times call for desperate measures, my boyfriend recently ended up taking a job that pays him good money. The only downfall is that he has to work out of town. This means that he’s gone Monday through Friday, every week. This is a challenge because we’re used to spending everyday with each other. My one hope is that absence does make our hearts grow fonder. Wish us luck!

Every Day is Exactly the Same!

At some point in time, every one has been, or will be in a rut. Whether this rut involves financial or relationship problems, and even addiction. There are millions of examples of ruts that people get into. Either way, the fact sill remains that people often settle themselves into a routine or habit. Even though some people prefer to live their life in a rut, most of them cringe at the fact of having something repeated all the time. I am a perfect example of one who hates the idea of a rut, let alone being in one. However, I always seem to get myself in some kind of jam that always takes me forever to get out of. Currently I’m in my idea of the rut of all ruts. This is because most of my ruts are fixed with minimal effort, but the one that I'm in now is a little different. I’m in ,what I like to call, the every day is exactly the same rut. I know, the name could be a lot more creative, but it’s pretty self explanatory. It reminds me of the song from ‘nine inch nails’, tiled the same as my blog. Every day, even before I wake up, I automatically know how my day is going to go. Even on the days that I don't have school, it seems to be that I’m in the same spot, doing the same thing, all the time! This may sound like an easy thing to fix, but the many people out there who have been in my same situation, know that it’s easier said than done. Except for all the rich people out there, at this point in time, the usual response is “ I'll just take one of my vacations from work and go to the Bahamas!” In order to fix the ruts that I often get into, I find out what it is that I’m repeating , and do something different. My problem now is that I don't have the time or the money to do something different. My guess is that I will, sadly, be stuck in this rut until I get my new apartment. At least then I'll be doing everything that I normally do, in a different surrounding. Maybe then, I will have something more interesting to write about!